Life has been amazingly.... SUCKY lately. Parents, huggy, exams. Somedays i want to break down and cry, somedays, like now, i feel like exploding into using profanities one after another.


Im just so stressed nowadays that i can barely find a reason to smile. I just want to get away from this house. People have always been saying that your house is a place where you can call home. A place where you can return to and put aside all your stress & troubles and soak in the warmth of your family.

Sorry, i just dont see it. Not with parents who dont understand me, a dog that is still young and constantly requiring so much attention that i can barely breathe.

Im always on the move, when im outside & even when i home. Sometimes, i just want to be left alone, some quiet time... but i NEVER get it.

Typing all this makes me feel teary but its okay. I need an outlet.


There's also stress from school as well, sure... exams left & i'll graduate right?

Thats true, or at least until last monday when i studied for the wrong paper & i decided to take a MC so that i can have more time to study for the retest without realizing that i made a big mistake.

If there isnt a retest, im gonna have to study for another semester, which means, i'll graduate in a different year from my classmates. What good is a graduation ceremony when you dont know anyone there and there is anyone to share ur joy?

Then again, im going to army soon. I WANT TO PASS MY FREAKING NAPFA. But i just dont have the time to even train.

I need to take up some car lessons to refresh my memory. But do i have the time?

I need to toilet train huggy after exams and i dont know how. (i know its my fault, but i swear im gonna do it till i succeed)

I need to work and save up for my studio recording/Teeth whitening/Music video shoot. Im dead serious about this & im going all the way with it. Especially when the future is uncertain & i know i at least have time before enlisting.

I need to make the best use of my remaining vocal/guitar classes, which i havent been doing so. Im pretty sure i wont have much time to sing when i enlist and... i might never have the chance to take classes like this ever again.

I need to plan all this shit that you guys just read.


Can i have a break please?

As usual every year, i never got a chance to celebrate valentines! 19 years into my life(going 20). I've never found someone who i really trust, someone i can talk to without the slightest hesitation, someone who will listen to my lifestory, someone who i will feel comfortable with.

People come in all shapes and sizes, so do their insides! Everyone is different! Watching all the couples celebrate valentine's day... makes me feel alil envy, some look like they are having fun, some are just enjoying their partner's company & some... well, you get my point!

In any case, i wish that all the couples can have fun tmr :) Enjoy the special day as it comes only once every year! Me? Hehe... i'll find something to keep myself occupied!

Okay! I know my blog's been dead for quite some time now although i promised i will update more regularly. Quite sorry people! haha. Busy life nowadays.

Here's some pictures lately!

Well, good news was that i totally enjoyed myself today at work! I do mean the ENTIRE day! Despite forgetting stuff here and there~

Bad news is... im not gonna be working for the next 3 weeks cuz of exams! Gonna miss the place, the awesome colleagues and the atmosphere there.

Oh well, i guess this next 3 weeks i got alot to do!


Before i forget, i dyed my hair ytd :)

Okay. Just a short update, really quite busy lately with the stuff i have to juggle.

Huggy's been sterilized yesterday & have his hernia repaired. He's still alil shaken up after the surgery, so all we can do is to leave him alone and let him rest for the next few days :)

Was so worried when he was having the surgery, but im glad he's fine! Shall blog again~ :)