Dreams can sing!

I cried.

2012-01-15T18:15:00.002+08:00

Believe me, i never thought i would. Im not even sure why but its just very heartbreaking when i watched this.

It's not just because its amazing, i feel as if i can feel her pain & im just so stunned that she's able to voice out her innocent thoughts. Where in a world that would just reject her, there's more to them then we thought....

Back home.

2012-01-15T07:38:00.004+08:00

Finally, i found some time and some motivation to update this blog of mine... Yes yes, i know i havent been updating properly like since forever.. Let's just start with whatever i remember k?

Hmm, as you all might know, i've gotten myself a job at USS lately. I've kind of settled down in my job and im enjoying it alot! Sure the work can be alil tough at times especially when its under the hot sun... but its really fun to interact with guests! The sense of satisfaction you get when you help someone is really nice :)

Plus the colleagues there are friendly too! Hehe!

Then... i remember myself falling sick for the most of last week :/ It all started with a diarrhea after eating some clams(my entire family had diarrhea after eating btw) and thats when one thing lead to another, i had a fever next which lasted for quite a few days & now im fighting the pain of ulcers in my mouth, even on my tongue!

Went shopping on thursday though, as i felt better, but realised that the shop which i always go to, the auntie was sick! Went to collect my payslip after that and had dinner with USS peeps!

I spent $69 on a De-shedder for my huggy ): Plus the $300 that i borrowed from my mum to get julie... there goes my pay! *inserts major saddness*

But i realised my pay wasnt correct, so im gonna go down to USS today and check out where's the missing money :)

Okay, So I went back to shop on friday! Think i landed myself pretty good deals, managed to get 2 tops, 1 bottom & 1 pair of boots for only $175! :)

Also, had a CNY performance at bugis ytd! I didnt sang well though... my voice broke on one part of my song and i forgot the words/parts during the CNY group singing. But oh wells, its over. Work harder for the next performance bah!

I know this post is very unorganised in terms of the timeline and the flow is pretty much how i would normally speak in person. (Yes, very disorganised i know)

But im rusty from not blogging properly for awhile, so yeah, forgive me :)

P.s. In case you're wondering who's julie...

:)

Sorry.

2012-01-07T11:39:00.003+08:00

Apologies for the previous post. Wasnt really myself and was just so stressed up till i felt like i was strangled. But yeah, im fine now...

I mean fine as in, im emotionally okay now. But still problems are unsolved. Sighs. When will this tide ride over?

State of depression.

2012-01-06T20:04:00.003+08:00

I dont even know what to say, i dont even want to do anything. For the first time in my life, i've been beat down so hard that i dont even want to get up anymore. Whats the point of getting up if you know you're gonna fall again? I tried and i tried and all i get was negative remarks. Sure, i failed, but why cant i get alil support?

Im being a asshole now. Huggy's starving and im not even bothering to feed him. Call me mad, call me inhuman. I just dont wish to care now. All i can think of are images of suicide in front of me.

Even mio's being such a bitch,

Pierced.

2012-01-01T22:51:00.001+08:00

Well, sorry for the lack of updates. The past 2 weeks has just been horrible for me! Somehow, things havent gone well, everything seems harder to do and my temper and tolerance was amazingly low as well.

But yeah, im glad december its over. Having headache now cuz i prolly slept too much! Oh, work so far as been fun! The atmosphere, the people, everything seems nice and i feel happy when i go to work!

I think i forgot to blog that i pierced my ear 2 weeks ago too! Anyway, shall do a proper post soon. Headache now, cant think properly, happy new year guys!

1st day of work.

2011-12-19T21:00:00.002+08:00

First official day of work! Started off the day wearing the wrong attire! Went back in the rain to change!

Well, was boring at first, just read and read and read the book. After that, shadowed people at dino-soaring. Honestly, quite fun luh! It's quite tiring and stressful, but i feel its fun :) Other than alot of things to remember, you get to interact and help people! That feeling is so good!

I even accompanied a lil boy to take the ride cuz he was alone! Was alil scared cuz the boy keep wanting to make the vehicle go higher, but the look on his face smiling, warms my heart (:

Though it was a rainy day, i kinda enjoyed myself (i didnt get drenched luckily)

But the bad thing is, i got like 2 tests to take, maybe 3, becuz i am in multiple attractions ):

Oh well... Cant wait for pay day :P

Stepping out of my comfort zone.

2011-12-14T22:48:00.002+08:00

Day 3 of work training at USS. We went round exploring and taking rides and learning stuff about the place!

I did one of the most unpredictable things in my life today. I took the rollercoaster, not just one, but two in a day.

If im honest, i was alil scared for transformers. Oh, yeah, i took it for free. Without waiting. STAFF FTW.

But as much as i was scared, i pretty much knew it was gonna be fine. So i went ahead with the ride. So i wasnt really scared if i was honest! And im so glad i stepped out of my comfort zone. The ride was really amazing. Defintely a must try, even if u queue 2hours for it!!

Next was the ancient egyptian mummy ride. Okay, this one i was totally scared. And i knew it, it was scary and much more faster and wilder than the transformer one. Well, i cant say that i "survived" cuz i alr knew i would, but im glad i went through it :)

It's just that i dont want to go through such excitement cuz i feel that there's no need for it? Other than that, i know i wont die, so yeah.

Didnt take battlestar galatica becuz i dont think i could handle so much excitement in a day. But just glad to watch ppl have fun :)

See, i may say im scared, but im actually not. (Alil for the ancient egypt one)

Becuz logically, i trust the machine/staff. I knew i wasnt gonna die, and thats all that matters :)

The voice from within.

2011-12-13T03:05:00.003+08:00

Okay, there's this voice from the back of my head that keeps telling me i should really update my blog! So here i am!

Hmm, just happy to say that exams are over, had a performance last saturday & i had my 1st day of work induction at USS ytd :)

Hmm... guess there's nothing interesting that happened lately? Like so boring... and my life like no meaning like that...

or at least i feel that way? Oh well, i dont even know why im feeling this way now.

;

Is this the way its going to be?

2011-12-07T08:22:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates :) Rather busy nowadays with exams. (Okay luh, im more of gaming than studying. Only flipping my books at the very last minute)

Any case, i've gotten myself a job at USS! And training starts next monday! Cant wait :)

Will be performing for a event this saturday! Excited to be invited! hehe. Life has been on a rollercoaster for the past week. With this few days plateauing in between.

Shall do a proper post soon k! :)

Like a rose.

2011-11-27T02:44:00.002+08:00

I dont even know where to begin this post... i got so many feelings and thoughts that i'll just start from the top!

SP BP Mentoring anniversary was yesterday! Performed two songs!

Home by michael buble and Like a rose by A1!

I'll be honest, i was kinda upset and frustrated at myself for the below standard performance i gave in terms of pitch. Which was partly because i was still sick, thus the lack of focus and it affected my pitch.

But any case, as i was moody for quite some hours after reaching home, i kept watching my video of like a rose. And it finally came to me! I actually did a good job! Considering my situation :) I mean, sure pitch wise there's alot of problems... But! BUT! I gave the song a new life, a new attitude that none of you would have heard before!

(Side track abit, im not gonna talk about home, cuz i think it was just passable, and i didnt do anything well in particular about the song.)

Anyways, there's a reason why "Like a rose" means so much to me! Maybe my secondary school friends will know. Growing up, i couldnt sing a line in tune and there was this one very day. Where i was asked to sing in class and yeah, i disgraced myself of course. And then another classmate of mine was asked to sing in that very same class! And this was the song that he sang!

At that time, my thoughts were like, if only i could sing like him... and after so many years... when i first tried to sing this song, other than the fact that it fitted my voice perfectly. It gave me a drive, a emotion i never experienced before. It's like some kind of positive agitation? That powerful drive to want to sing this song well and give it life! A life of my own!

Thus, i believe that gave whatever i felt since those years in sec sch being envy of people who can sing till now. I put every emotion into the song. And i really think i did a good job :)

I know some of you might not believe this story. But surprisingly, i have proof! Just watch this video and you'll know! The first guy who tries to sing in front is ME! And there comes my classmate with this song! You can hear my classmates jeering my name (chih peng~ chih peng~)

Today's rehearsal.

2011-11-24T22:47:00.002+08:00

It went well :) Sound system problem has been avoided. Now the only issue is my own singing. As i try my best to rest as much as i can to gain my full voice back. Im trying to stablize my singing and my high notes.

Other than that, everything was fine! :D

On a side note, after saving for so long, i've decided to not buy myself a pair of boots anymore. Decided to do the right thing and use the money to send huggy for a grooming session!

Will be wearing my old Dr Marten boots :)

Happiness too as im meeting ling for lunch tmr! So long since i last went out/seen her :) And huggy's grooming is tmr! Need to go do my brisk walking excersize to lose weight too! hehe! Thats all :D

P.s. I cut my hair today, like finally.

Sucked.

2011-11-22T22:55:00.002+08:00

Today's rehearsal... if im being honest, i didnt sing well at all. I lack practice for one of my song, the other one is okay. But my voice was super shaky and unstable today. Pitching wasnt good, high notes was on the brink of breaking...

Why? It's because of my 2 week and 5 days old flu thats why. I still havent recover and my voice sounds so horrible lately. Sighs. Plus... the sound system there isnt good too.

What to do?

P.s. I STILL havent buy my boots.

P.p.s. My luck has been horrible this few days...

;

This 2 days.

2011-11-21T21:59:00.001+08:00

Feeling emotionally unstable this few days. I think im watching too much of 'LOST'. Just feel super scared and insecure without a particular reason..

Gonna go walk to clear my head. There's rehearsal for my performance tmr. Let's hope i recover.

75% in a single second.

2011-11-19T01:08:00.007+08:00

Sometimes i admit im shocked at how fast my analytical mind can work. I had a minor disagreement with my mum just now...

I just think that its only fair that Huggy gets groomed once a month. I agree with her its really expensive... but i think Huggy deserves a good life and deserves to feel comfortable and not walk around with his hair sticking out of his foot pads.

I can tell its not comfortable lah... so its like, i pretty much made up my mind that im gonna find a job and go work. (75% decided, still on my way there)

But im just worried becuz so far the past 2 jobs i did was a big fail. Especially when i have such a ridiculously poor memory... Or maybe i didnt make the effort? Hmm...

Guess i have to ponder more before i make the decision! Cuz i really want to work to pay for huggy's grooming fees/bringing him out monthly to meet his sister.

All the time, i need to save like crazy mad just to get what i want... (i've been saving like 2-3 weeks for my boots, im already near, but im still not there)

Plus, i've so many needs/wants for myself that i cant even afford...

Anyway, before i end... just gonna say something random! To

JASMINE KU SI MUN

I think you're a awesome friend and i feel really comfortable talking to you about anything! Sometimes i just wish the time will just stop and we can go on talking about the deepest stuff and never stop! :)

;

The little details.

2011-11-17T23:42:00.003+08:00

Realised lately how nice some people are! They care about you and ask about you :) Feels so nice to know that some of my friends care for me. Think what i've been doing lately has allowed me to not be so full of myself and appreciate all the things/people around me.

Feels so nice ;) And im still sick! 2 weeks already :/ Sighs!

;

Like a lightning.

2011-11-15T22:10:00.003+08:00

Was working out just awhile ago and this thought flashed over my mind... My life used to be revolved around basketball and singing. But thats not the case now is it? Im happy im still singing but basketball... i totally have left it behind!

Dont know if that's a good thing or not actually. But all i know is, i still love the game! Even though i dont play anymore, im sure the next time i hit the court, i'll be happy :)

Feeling alil better after visiting the doctor's today. Went to school after that and survived. Mundane life as a engineering student. Oh well... and im gonna start studying for mst this weekend. As usual, me and my classmates have no clue about any modules cuz we havent been paying attention in class.

But this is my last sem, gotta make it count! Looking forward to my performance next saturday, gonna have a good time :)

P.s. I still havent buy my boots.

Flu-ridden

2011-11-14T18:59:00.001+08:00

Have been down with flu for 1 week+, going to 2 weeks already. Worse is, i've been taking my medicine regularly but im not recovering.

Please let me recover?

;

I CANT STOP SMILING.

2011-11-11T22:33:00.003+08:00

I was digging through my files on my laptop and i found my old performing videos! Then it came over to me that i hadnt watch my videos for a long long time. So i decided to watch my first ever performance.

And... I SMILED. Even till now!! Cant stop thinking about how my singing was back then, how much i didnt understand about singing then. I've really come a long way. Though my singing was alot poorer during that time, but i sang with no worries! I really enjoyed it! Thats why... i guess that spark is missing nowadays.

Guess all the trying-to-get-better stress i add to myself is probably why i've not been able to sing well lately.

Hehe, feels nice to be nostalgic and laugh/smile at my own singing once in awhile :)

;

今天, 我笑了..

2011-11-10T22:53:00.005+08:00

看了这部电影后, 我觉得非常感动! 原本今天... 不昨天, 我的心情已经就很糟糕了. 就觉得，这个世界是如此的假, 如此的残酷... 无论我怎样的告诉自己, 不能放弃, 不能让希望溜走. 我不断发现自己无法抬起头来.

但是在观看这个电影中, 我真正的感受到一个在人生中很重要的点子, 那就是 '诚意'.

哈哈哈! 很傻吧? 不过是真正的! 在电影开始前, 我以为这部电影是个感动落泪的电影... 但是它不是! 从开始到最后都是笑点! 笑到我胃痛!

可是在所有的笑话中, 你可以看到男主角对女主角的诚意! 他爱了她十年! 更重要的是他宁愿不知道女主角是否爱他, 而勇敢的继续爱她!

我承认这部电影笑点有点太多了! 不过它传达的讯息是如此强和简单! 真的感到很温心! 很希望我能像男主角一样, 勇敢的去爱我喜欢的那个女生! 当她的守护天使!

(:

;

Help.

2011-11-09T23:47:00.003+08:00

Hi, im looking for chih peng. If you find him, do let me know. Thanks.

;

Lately.

2011-11-08T00:06:00.002+08:00

Since nothing dramatic has happened lately... just just blog randomly like i always do :)

Realised lately that actually i'm surrounded by alot of nice people, people who i can talk to about about life and yet be comfortable. Feeling really comfortable to be around them! Actually... only 2 person :p

I also failed my napfa and im retaking it in december! Wont give up till i pass! Plus... i just saw a video of a guy who lost SO MUCH WEIGHT he looked so different the last time he was on stage! WOW! Im so determined to be like him now!!!

Also... im gonna start saving money from tomorrow onwards, if can, i wont spend any money! Need to buy my boots first before i talk about buying other stuff!

Thats all :) here's hoping it'll be a good week for me!

My heart is at ease.

2011-10-29T07:51:00.002+08:00

I think over the past few days, my life has been rather enriching when i found out that i actually do have a friend who likes to talk about LIFE.

Really rare to find someone i can talk about this topic and i can be totally comfortable with :) Also managed to sort out my mind again.

I've been so concerned about impressing rather than just focusing on what music is. The enjoyment of it.

I think thats also the problem with my singing nowadays, i realised that some songs, even though i like it or im feeling it, i just cant sing it well. Why? I think is because i was under the pressure that i needed to sing it SO WELL that i can impress. But then i forgot the true meaning of singing in the process.

In any case, i'll just treat it like a normal performance(where i'll wear nice!) and no matter what song i sing, i'll just sing it! Doesnt matter about impressing anot. Just sing :)

(Im gonna relook into my music library and see if there are others songs i can sing too!)

Worse to worse, singing one song will do because i already settled on one song & i love it. It feels like a flashback to 4 years ago :)

P.s. I think i've really matured alot lately. Dont you think so?

When's the last time you fell in love?

2011-10-26T02:33:00.003+08:00

Mine's right now :)

:P

-stressed-

2011-10-25T22:27:00.001+08:00

Okayyy. So here i am, left with 1 week and 3 days to my napfa test & im really really stressed about it!

Very irritating especially when im on a diet but im having a cold. A rather bad one. It's because my body is fighting against the virus and thats why im more hungry easily cuz my body needs energy! AND I CANT SAY NO! :/

To be honest, i've no confidence in ANY station, to do well. Even my best, pullup, can only manage a C the most?

I really think im practically useless at sports as i cant run even when i play basketball. I think i cant stretch too. Sighs.

Seriously, i dont want to fail napfa. It's not just about the hair... but i rather not spend 2 extra months in bmtc when i can work/play with huggy/sing.

I miss some of my friends too. Farm animals, usuals(i want to play basketball), maybe a couple of others too.

I miss being happy and smiling because im happy deep down inside. I miss performing. I miss singing my heart out. I miss the old days. Where everything was so carefree.

Maybe the only good thing i can look forward to is shopping this saturday. Oh well, what can i do?

Okay. Im seriously not in the right mind to blog. This is such a messy post. Geez. Bye.

喜欢一个人, 并不需要和她一起

2011-10-18T18:15:00.005+08:00

Okay. So let me get to the point in this post! Let me first say that something bad happened yesterday and i believe its really my fault.

But... as i was spending the morning thinking about the stuff that happened, i realised something...

Whatever im gonna say next might sound corny/cheesy/cliche. But! I realised that im a changed person from the past.

I mean, everybody changes over time, even the tiniest bit. But im not referring to that. Im refering to the fact that when i was in secondary school...

I was this shy little boy who would never dare to talk to the girl i like if there were other people around, i would always just keep quiet and take a peek at her once in awhile!

I mean... i still am this shy little boy! although i've had more confidence lately! Probably because i know what i want & i want to do it the right way. But my point's this... there's something which i had from long ago, that i didnt have now.

Sincerity. The me then, probably because i was really shy... i didnt talk about relations and stuff, i would talk about other things! Thats why, most of them... even though nothing happened, we were still friends till now. (1 of them is actually a friend whom i can turn to when im sad)

Im really having trouble putting this into words. I guess what im trying to say is, i knew how to be a friend even though i liked the girl. But now... i seem to have lost that side of me.

The me then, i would just be happy if the girl i liked was happy. I mean, of course i wanted more, but i would be contented just to see the girl i like smile.

So from today onwards! Im gonna be this way! Im gonna find that old friend of mine who has gone missing from my body (laughs at my ridiculous joke!)
.
.
.
(okay not funny! -.-)

But yeah, you get the point, to me now. I just wanna be friends. At least for now. That's more than enough :D

Oh! And i swear i was touched till my heart swelled alot when i watched this!!!

Really kinda reminds me of how i feel now. Especially with the warm vocals from 胡夏. Swear im gonna watch it when it comes out even if im broke :)

Last day of holidays.

2011-10-16T07:03:00.002+08:00

So here it is, the last day of holidays. I think that i rather wasted my holidays this time around! It was like 2/3 weeks of fyp. The rest is filled with huggy/alil bit of singing/some guitar.

Didnt really make much of anything to be honest. Here's the big issue, i never liked to start a new semester feeling tired and worn out. Believe it or not, im actually alil worn out... though it wasnt like itp last holiday that i was totally tired to the semester!

But im still tired :/ Especially... when i've been sleeping on the sofa for a week plus now. Come on new bed! Faster arrive! ><

In any case, i find myself counting down to alot of things. It seems as if this semester isnt filled with lots of stuff, but yet it is significant at the same time.

Why? Because im counting down to the day im gonna officially stop vocals! Yes! After 2 years + going on 3 years, its about time i stopped. But dont worry, i still have time before i go in army. Also my guitar class... and also.... about... yep.

However... all pressure is taking a positive toll on me now! Im feeling more and more confident every single day about them. :)

Take it slow and easy.

2011-10-13T23:23:00.005+08:00

I think that personally, i live too much in my dreams. I gotta understand reality and not be manipulated by dreams too much.

I mean... sometimes you may want something real badly, you'll definitely go all out to get it. Believe me, i would do that. But the point is, this rule doesn't apply to all situations.

Sometimes... the best defence is the best offence. You gotta know when to slow things down because somethings will only come to you if you let it be.

Have been rather demoralised/depressed this few days cuz of thinking too much. But im better now, though still not completely better.

In any case, take it slow CP, take it slow. Because at the end of the day, you want be a calm shoulder not just a loving partner.

;)

Tired.

2011-10-07T08:47:00.002+08:00

Im so tired from yesterday's camp that i woke up an hour late to feed my puppy just now. I wanna have fun today but i dont think i can. But i would sure love to hang out today.

Anyway, today's gonna be a work-on-my-vocals day, as well as deciding the song to sing for my audition tmr :)

Fill my void.

2011-10-03T09:54:00.001+08:00

I could use a hugg from her now. I feel so empty today. Maybe im just tired and cuz i had a lack of sleep. I realy wish for a hug. Sighs.

If only everything would click all at one go. I'll be a happy man.

Blogging.

2011-10-01T06:49:00.000+08:00

Alright. I seriously havent been updating lately. Been out of the habit! Sorry :)

Huggy had his 3rd jab on tuesday. He's healthy now, but im still learning to understand him as a puppy. It's not easy but im trying my best!

Vocals are fine so far and guitar also :)

Let me do a proper update soon k!

Genuinity

2011-09-21T23:11:00.003+08:00

I think im starting to understand now. At the end of the day, i just want respect. I think most of my friends are genuine and real in their own way. But, i dont like to be tied down with responsibilities. I want to be given choices! Even a simple movie outing, i want to have the choice to say 'no'. Believe me, giving me a simple 'no' would give you more 'yes' in the future.

I also wondered why i've always refused to touch alcoholic drinks(okay fine, i did drink jolly shandy, but its so little it doesnt count!) . I wondered, was it my sense of justice that stopped me from wanting to drink. Was it for control of my character cuz i keep lots of thoughts in my head?

Hmm, actually alil of both... but the main reason is... i dont feel a need for it! So i wont ever touch alcohol, to me... just being peaceful, having fun around fun people who respect me and doing the things i love is enough!

Let me just spend the remaining minutes left of the day being real (:

Peaceful state of mind.

2011-09-19T06:48:00.003+08:00

As days go on... i feel more and more.... tired. I really wish time will speed up! Totally agree with what everyone says, having a puppy is really REALLY tiring. Day by day, i look at him as if he's already a part of my family though he is really hard to handle/train.

Plus, i noticed lately that i've been so caught up in the technical issue that i lost that part of myself again. Gotta really get it back.

Lastly, which will be the most understandable part of this post, i find myself typing that cliche line all over again.

'Being in love is so hard'. Im happy that im at least friends with her, like texting and stuff~ But honestly, though i know i have to be patient... i really wish things will just click together all at once. Maybe im just tired thats why im thinking like this?

Though at the end of the day, for more than a year... i really like her :)

Fyp later. Bye.

Busy.

2011-09-15T06:35:00.002+08:00

Realised that i didnt blog for a really long time already! Im surprised that i even forgot the existence of blogging during this last 10 days....

Been really, really, REALLY busy lately. Puppy, FYP(which is like almost every other day next week).

On top of that, i gotta practise for vocals and guitar! Competition coming and guitar... lets say im way behind and i gotta put extra effort as the syllabus is getting tougher.

I swear... for the last week of my holidays, im NOT going to go out anywhere except for guitar & vocal class when needed! I just want to spend time with my puppy and myself.

Plus, im so nervous and scared about my results. Please let me pass.

Day 4.

2011-09-04T06:30:00.002+08:00

It's day 4 since my little boy arrived, he's starting to look better and finally eating his food and drinking his water.

Hmmm, i think was i right to be strict to him when he deserves it. Like barking non stop when im preparing the food or putting the food down in the cage for him. Or even jumping on the cage when he's barking too.

Nonono, now he's understanding me! When i scold him(after a few minutes of it), he will sit/lay down quietly and wait for me to prepare. The moment he barks again, i'll run back and start scolding.

Blah blah, similar to when im putting the food down.

But i havent got the chance to brush his teeth or comb him properly cuz he's always so active. Kinda need some help in this area :/

But other than that, and his diahhroea which is becoming better... he's okay :)

Performance yesterday was okay too... considering i really didnt get to put in alot of practice... but still same thing, stability. I keep stressing about my pitch in the past, now im stressing on the stability of my pitch! Cuz i think my pitch is okay! Just the stability part got problem! And my high notes too! Which is becoming better as i type this! Other than that! All is well :P

Day 2.

2011-09-01T13:51:00.001+08:00

It's barely a day's time that huggy came to my home yet i find that instead of him learning so many things... i am too. I have so much to learn and not to be so strict with my puppy and give it time... :/

He's sleeping soundly now. From later on, i swear i'll be nicer and less strict and give him a good time!

So pissed at this home.

2011-08-28T20:11:00.006+08:00

Lies and lies and lies.

Im often scolded for doing last minute work at home cuz of my lazy character. Now, FOR ONCE, FOR ONE FKING TIME, I want to prepare huggy's cage well before he comes so that he'll have a good start at home & they cant deliver what they promised.

Yesterday, we quarrelled, and my dad said that he'll finish the cage today. So i shut up & asked him nicely... "morning finish can? Afternoon i going out!"

He told me okay. So i woke up and my dad didnt even start on the cage. So i kept quiet and went out. Thinking it'll be done when i get home. And when i reach home. I realised it's not even started. Plus, he wanted to add some stuff to make the home look nicer. I respect that. But he didnt even go buy the material like he promised yesterday.

Come on, you guys might say that im not fair and blah blah blah, please look and see from my shoe. I rarely ever get anything done early, always last minute, now for once, i want to finish my dear puppy's preparation and they give me problems.

And what if by a small little chance, i can bring him home tmr... and i come home and realised that his sleeping place is not done? I highly doubt he'll feel secure at all. Plus he'll be running around loose.

Is it fair? Worse, when i give them the facts to their face and logic has already proven that im right, they live in denial and deny everything with reasons.

Tell me. Where am i wrong?

EDITED AT 9.50PM.

Since my parents have kept quiet and dad is doing the cage now, i'll just put the anger down and go help him out.

I miss huggy.

2011-08-28T19:26:00.003+08:00

I swear i miss my little boy now... Unfortunately, there's a super high chance that i wont be able to bring him home tmr... most likely on wednesday cuz he's gonna be getting his 2nd jab from a different vet tmr! So he must be kept for a few more days to check his condition.... :/

Anyway... my shopping for him is complete(except his sleeping area where my dad promised he'll finish building it by tuesday).

Here's some more stuff i got for him lately :)

Oh! Before i go... just to say, yesterday's performance at expo was a interesting one! Since it was a outdoor performance... there wasnt much shelter from rain. So i ended up singing in the rain. LOL. Literally, from the first line i sang, it was drizzling already! By the 2nd song i finished, it was raining heavily and i was totally wet. Nice experience :P

Rather busy week.

2011-08-23T10:17:00.002+08:00

This will be a tough week for me... i have a paper tomorrow, thursday and friday to study for monday's paper! As saturday, i have a performance at expo, which i'll try to study in the day and vocals on sunday, which i'll try to study in the morning.

Procrastination kills, especially when i havent been feeling so well lately.

In any case, danae was alright, saw her few days back & though her right front leg still appear slanted.. she was being lively again!

So is huggy :) But he's being bullied in his playfights with danae. Such a gentle boy i have (esp when he's bigger in size to danae) :P

Im bringing huggy home next monday after my paper! Decided that it was the best choice as i'll be quite busy for the days after my last paper with fyp and stuff. Kinda best to spend more time asap which is next monday after his 2nd jab.

Excited much :)

Mixed feelings.

2011-08-20T21:50:00.002+08:00

Was initially a happy day when i saw huggy but something terrible happened.... Banae fell off the table to the ground! :/

Me and kathy were shocked. Im not sure what happened, but i think banae got away from kathy and ran to the side of the table and jumped down. She landed on the floor quite hard and started crying.... thankfully, she still can eat.. which is a good sign! But her right leg looks slanted! And i think she got really scared and lost her cheerful and playful attitude....

Seriously, i hope she'll be fine and return to being lively again... i know she's not my pup. But she is huggy's little sister... so i still care... gonna visit her with kathy tmr. Please let banae be alright!

And here are the photos i took today! I swear huggy has gotten so big since i last saw him like less than a week ago.

Updateeeeeeeee.

2011-08-17T04:06:00.001+08:00

#1: I did fyp yesterday.
#2: I met ling for a study session yesterday.
#3: I got guitar class today and i have not practised & attended for 2 weeks.
#4: I miss huggy.
#5: I might meet up with huggy's sister's owner on saturday.
#6: I wish exams would disappear ._.
#7: I am hungry.
#8: I am going to practise my guitar now.

Shopping for Huggy!

2011-08-13T00:23:00.008+08:00

Finally went to shop for Huggy yesterday! :D

Kinda sad about the money part at first... but thinking about seeing my cute huggy's face everyday soon. Makes me smile so much more (:

And a clicker gift from thomas! Gonna use it to train my puppy ;) Many thanks to him for helping me so much since i decided on getting a puppy! ;D

Purpled w red.

2011-08-07T10:38:00.003+08:00

Dyed my hair dark purple and highlighted red ytd :) Doing my best to ensure it doesnt fade off that much. HAHA.

P.s. I realised i have not updated about vocals for a long time :/ Anyway, im having vocals later. But i think i'll be too lazy to update :P

Dash-ed.

2011-08-05T23:56:00.002+08:00

At the end of the day... im sitting here facing my laptop screen asking myself... how did it happen??

How was it possible?

Here's what happened...

1, I let myself go into the state of mind that it would a sure pass audition and i didnt put my head in the game. Too overconfident.

2, Bad song choice, really really bad one. I should have sang something much much MUCH more familiar.

3, Bad day with bad flu? But i guess that's not an excuse... even the average singer can stay in tune even when he's sick.

Basically, i screwed up today. Let this be a important lesson for me to remember.

Cuteness max.

2011-07-31T23:23:00.004+08:00

Visited my puppy 2 days back! Was lazy to blogggg haha! Anyway, my puppy's doing fine! His eyes have opened but he still cant walk yet. Still crawling like a baby! He'll be a month old tmr! Cant wait for his arrival :D

P.s. I swear that carrying a puppy while it sleeps is the best thing ever <3

The last photo is becuz my puppy was sleeping and i kept disturbing it! Thats why it looks so sleepy :P

91/100 :)

2011-07-28T00:29:00.000+08:00

Did well! But defintely room for improvement! Cant wait for next week's lesson! Intermediate class! :)

Now that this is done... Here goes to preparing for EEE idol :D

Today.

2011-07-27T02:43:00.002+08:00

Finally... after one year... here it comes :) Was initially super pissed cuz only english songs were allowed. But now, any language allowed! So here i go :D

1 more month to my puppy coming home. Excited much. Already thought of the name too! "Huggy" :D

Oh, guitar assessment today! I think im ready? :D

Days numbered.

2011-07-22T22:38:00.000+08:00

Well, guitar assessment coming next wed! Top on my priority list! Second, prepare for coming talentime/idol competition in school. I've seen CLS and SB ones already. I believe EEE one will be coming soon. Time to prepare!

Guess there's nothing much i need to say. Bye! :)

What shall the name be?

2011-07-19T01:28:00.002+08:00

Went to check out on some newborn cavalier puppies yesterday with my mother. Though it was expensive... my mum and dad decided to buy the puppy for me... i really dont think i have any right to complain in the future anymore.

They may be unreasonable at times but at the end of the day... they're always getting me what i want... I guess i should really be more mature and start acting like a grown up now...

Anyway, the puppy wont be coming to my home until 2months later or so. So... in the meantime, im gonna get myself mentally prepared and so! I cant say that i've fallen in love with it yet as it's still a baby. But im starting to think about it now...

Basically, i think i made a impatient choice. But i guess, i can only pray for the best... This breed has been know to have lots of health problems due to poor breeding by many breeders. So let just hope i got myself a strong healthy pup!

Im still thinking about what to call it though.... hmmmm... We shall see :)

The sun after the rain(finally)

2011-07-14T23:08:00.002+08:00

Okay. I swear monday, tuesday, wed was hell. Packed with carwash stuff and class. Actually, i barely went for any class this week... but got LOA. So nvm!

Carwash started yesterday! Didnt go so well due to stuff happening and so on... but today... BIG TURNAROUND. ALOT BETTER! Everything was messy but in some way... in control :)

Plus... my cold war with my parents + sleeping on the sofa for 1 week has ended. Finally approved to keep a puppy! :) Gonna have to settle the money part myself though! Researching on saturday! Will be going down to the farms with thomas :D

Lastly, celebrated dad's birthday! First time celebrate :) Just a simple cake and wish! haha. Today was GREAT! ;D

That struggle in between.

2011-07-09T14:46:00.003+08:00

Been watching his video for nearly an hour now, i swear that my tears keep filling my eyeballs even though i only watch 4 parts to this...

I think life is amazing that we people, learn from each other. We give each other the power to become better. We give each other the motivation, the influence to get better. Once 1 person doesnt give up, more and more people doesnt give up. That is the power of encouragement.

Each of us, every single one of us has a choice. When you see someone depressed... someone on the edge of giving up. What choice do you make? Are you gonna be the one that gives them the final push down the edge? Or turn them around and bring a smile onto that face?

We each have our choices, our beliefs, we are who we are. What people say about us dont define us.

It's the choices that we make that defines who we are. So be the change u want to see, start encouraging people and turning them around. Surely, we wont succeed everytime... but the effort goes a longer way than success. Never give up everyone. Follow Nick vujicic and dont stop believing.

Reliance.

2011-07-05T00:38:00.004+08:00

流下了一滴眼泪... 真的让我感到悲伤... 真的沒什麼字可以形容我现在的感觉......

Freaking unreasonable.

2011-07-04T21:28:00.005+08:00

I swear i hate people who are unreasonable and dont listen to logic. If i had were rich, i swear i would have left this house.

I mean, come on. Whats the difference? Im willing to go the extra mile and use my savings to get what i want. Isnt it the same as when what i want is given by others?

COME ON. YOU DONT LOSE ANYTHING.

IM THE ONE SUFFERING AND YET I DONT

MIND. I WOULD RATHER SUFFER AND

GET WHAT I WANT. WHATS WRONG WITH

YOU.

I swear people who cant accept logic are just plain idiots. When u fight every single of their queries with logic and they have nothing else to say. They just come up with stupid excuses that makes no sense.

Damn it.

Still a heavy feeling.

2011-07-01T22:13:00.007+08:00

Finally mst's are over... well, mine was over yesterday. But i aint jumping out of chair yet, i aint smiling like nobody's business yet.

There's still carwash to come & after that... it'll be a load off my shoulders! Or at least i hope :)

Guitar assessment announced! 27 july!!!! Didnt know it would be a on-the-stage-with-no-audience-except-my-classmates-performance. I guess the first thing on my mind after carwash would be to prepare fully for my assessment!

Well, there's also the kbox semifinal's next sunday! I think i pretty much decided my song, just need to decide on the key... if you feel like coming to hear me sing, just let me know :D

Also... I bought 梁文音's album too! YAY!

梁文音's music showcase session at powerhouse next saturday! Cant wait! Though im still alil sad that i cant go for her autograph session cuz it clashes with my singing competition... but i know she would want me to go for my competition! HAHA! Besides, i have faith that i'll be able to get her to sign my album in the future :D

Oh! Did i mention? It's time for me to get back into the gym & the pool soon. I've slacked off from swimming and running since holidays begun. Time to get back to them! Though i might change my plans alil bit now.

Bye :)

Better day,

2011-06-27T23:20:00.003+08:00

Today has got to be one of the better days so far. Passed my audition today :) First time passing a singing compy audition outside school. So darn happy. It's a big sign of recognition for me!

Plus, my mum agreed to having a dog! But i have to settle the amount to get one i guess... :/ Not cheap! Sighs.

Anyway, Mst starts tmr. Gotta keep fighting. All the best everyone :D

Personal wall.

2011-06-26T23:37:00.004+08:00

Went for a audition today, and i realised something... i realised that personally, there's a difference in my confidence when i perform and when i compete!

I realised that when i perform, i tend to have alot more confidence & feel alot less nervous!

But when i compete, i get super nervous and i know the reason why! But nevertheless, today's audition was my best one yet. Hope to get in semifinals :)

Exams in almost 1 day... and im super stressed about carwash preparation... sighs. Whatever..

Oh! Did i mention? I love this singer and this song!

Pretty much because of the drama behind this song :) Love the entire thing! Especially cyndi :D

Stressed.

2011-06-25T00:16:00.001+08:00

I've set down my feet, told myself that this is something i want & im not gonna look back. No matter what happens & im gonna show it.

I pretty much feel like just giving up for the coming exams. Sighs. Whatever. I'll do what im supposed to do.

So freaking depressed. Time to get organised.

Youth.

2011-06-23T22:57:00.001+08:00

I will never understand what it feels like to spend time taking care of a pet as a youth. Damn my unlucky life.

Reminiscence~

2011-06-21T02:11:00.003+08:00

Been watching a old kungfu film for this 2 days :) Well, i was initially gonna study, but i fell sick... so i decided to just go ahead with watching!

It's a film that i remembered i loved this young, "Heavenly sword & Dragon sabre", well, i think the cute female lead also adds to my reason for watching too :P

I know she's old, but who cares! I think she's still really cute!!!! :/

Well, now that i've finished watching it. Life resumes later today. Camp Debrief later at 10am & study in school afterwards & bball at night.

I love 賈靜雯 :D

Singing.

2011-06-19T00:28:00.004+08:00

Well... today's audition... i guess i have alot of things to say, but this time i really dont know where to start... hmm...

Let's just say i contemplated alil for this one. I know i've improved alot vocally, but i guess i let that get to my head & looked down on the competition. Forgetting that no matter how much i've improved, im still weak...

It was when i saw so many good vocalists today in the waiting area. I was stunned.

Another thing... tough luck for me! I've not been able to sleep well lately (i dont know why?)! So my voice condition really wasnt good today... Guessed i gotta work harder for more improvement.

At least i was commented that i improved alot, but i gotta improve more! Shall not let it get to my head.

Seriously doubting i will get pass this audition, but nevermind, still carry that small hope! But gotta work harder! :)

Well, bye! :)

P.s. I think i've come to understand a little bit more about song choice. I always thought that if your voice suits the song, its a good song choice. But no. They're not directly related! There's many other things u need to consider, like whether u are able to deliver the song, whether its hard part is ur weakness and such. Im becoming smarter ;D

Adrenaline rushed.

2011-06-15T23:52:00.002+08:00

Okay... So i woke up to a bad start, bad day... unhappy mood blah blah blah but things turned better as the day went on!

No guitar class today as my instructor is overseas :) So... i went to get myself a nice file to put my guitar notes!

Okay, my hair is too ugly now to show... thats why im wearing the fedora :P

Anyway, im kinda surprised that i chose this colour, i thought i would have bought blue, black or pink! As they were easily my fav colours... but then, i guess i just wanted something new?

Also.... i went to sign up for a singing competition today... after like 3 weeks of "im too lazy to go down and sign up~" I finally pulled my butt off the sofa and went down to register!

Also had hot fudge sundae cuz i was craving for it. LOL. It did make me happy though :/

Okayokay... so, here are things coming up...

1, Carwash event, preparations under-way :) If you're from mentoring & you are interested to help out! Do contact me :D

2, Singing competitions! There's one audition this saturday & one more next week. Different competitions though! Gonna choose some new songs i've learned and try them :)

3, MST! Dragggggggg. Worse part of my holidays, but i've started revising alittle already! :)

4, FYP! Okay, this will be ongoing until i graduate i guess?

5, Guitar assessment next month :) There's not much time! PRACTISE CHIH PENG!!!

Thats all! Please dont make my holiday a bad one people! Thanks :D

Mentoring freshman orientation NINJA camp! :D

2011-06-09T23:09:00.013+08:00

Well people, im back from the most tiring 4 days of my life. (Probably because im older now, thats why)

In any case, Camp was great! Though really tiring when you have to keep running and moving for each of the 4 days. (Somemore, the first day was only a prep camp)

Sure, i think i could have done more & i wished i had... but im pretty happy to say that i did my best according to how my body would allow it too :)

Totally love my campers! We got the 2nd best group award :D:D:D Also one of the best cheers too ;)

Lastly, i cant be more proud to say that im touched by my campers, sacrificing for other people, learning to step out of their comfort zones in just a mere 3 days excluding the nights (:

It's also because of them that i got my first taste in understanding the perfection within imperfection. It's all the effort & little things that counts :D

TO ALL MY CAMPERS: Thanks for making this one of the best camp groups i've facilitated! ;D

Still currently physically tired from the camp... so i shall not do so much talking. Here are some of the pictures!

P/s. My voice sounds so damn cool now. LOL. I'll need to get my voice back asap! Singing competitions coming! :D:D:D

A different feeling.

2011-06-05T06:51:00.004+08:00

I personally prefer slow, silent, sentimental songs. But no one can dislike this video i posted on top man. Just when she hits that big note, i feel chills going up my spine. (Pretty sure its not the fan blowing at me)

I mean, listen to the way she handles big notes, the adlibs with accuracy. WOW. But i still stick to what i love the most. Songs like this are amazing and show how amazing the singers are.

However, there are songs that are quiet, silent yet they remain in your heart. Those are the songs that i love :)

The first morning.

2011-06-04T09:16:00.007+08:00

I always believed that waking up beside your loved one in bed is the most beautiful thing in the world. Especially, the first time that you wake beside her & the sun just shines over her face... Nothing can be more beautiful :)

This song... just expresses it... im really touched by how simple songs can make my heart swell. Enjoy :)

Contemplation.

2011-06-03T23:42:00.002+08:00

You know... ever since i made up my mind to work hard and win EEE idol this year... i always thought it would be a smooth-sailing trip... but, im wrong.

I believed in that because 2 of the best singers in the competition last year, one had already won once while the other, has already graduated(or at least soon).

So if i worked hard, i will win it for sure! But, after hearing so many good singers in the corridors of the cca clubhouses lately...

I realised that i've under-estimated the competition... Sure! They might not be from EEE. But i shouldnt let that put my guard down. I still gotta work hard to make my beliefs happen.

I just love singing, but im a competitor too. I never liked to lose. Im gonna work hard this holiday, as i have stressed time and time again. I believe i will be able to go the distance.

And sing... for a certain someone to hear. Here i go :)

Lesson one.

2011-06-02T23:31:00.002+08:00

I think i learned something lately... though i only realised it yesterday.

But maybe.. in my case, love doesnt happen if u plan for it to happen. Everytime i plan for something to happen, it has a way of going the other way round. But just that one time, i didnt plan anything. And things just got better.

Oh wells, being friends isnt so bad i guess :/

My CAPO! :D

2011-06-01T23:10:00.003+08:00

Hey people! :)

In a good mood today, i realised that guitar lessons somehow... makes me smile! Though i dont know my classmates well... i still feel they are nice people! (The teacher is nice too :P)

Oh! I've went to get my first capo today!

Guitar lessons going well! Still got a long way, but now that i think about it. At least im learning! :P

Didnt swim and run for a week already. No time/too tired. Gonna go gym tmr though.

Lastly, i need to get fbt shorts before camp next monday. Maybe an extra shirt too.
Also... shopping for carwash equipment tis friday :D

Thats all for now :P

Little up.

2011-05-30T22:56:00.004+08:00

Here's a small piece of good news, though my day started damn bad, my singing & my judgement & feel improved a little :) Probably cuz of guitar classes. Im starting to see more into songs than i used to see.

However, i need to practise alot more during my time in the holidays. Cant wait to compete & perform!

Next term is my most important one in my entire poly life so far. Last chance. Still some time to work on myself though.

Managed to get carwash flyer design settled, just some little changes left, gotta do budget list for equipment before going to buy them this friday.

Fyp is taking its toll on me too. Like finally... lets just see how it goes.

P/S. Excited for vocals tmr. Gonna go shower & practise my guitar soon.

No more.

2011-05-30T12:40:00.003+08:00

I swear i dont want anymore nonsense. Im already at my limits, if you're gonna make me do things that i insist i dont wanna do. I'll just leave.

I cant wait for this week to be over. Hopefully, things will turn better.

Depressed.

2011-05-29T16:33:00.001+08:00

Damn depressed now. The website where i get my MMO's for songs cannot download songs now. All links missing.

I dont know any other website to download already. Sighs. Havent been able to sleep lately. Too stress? Everyday wake up = worry about another thing.

Can someone help me?

3 weeks of holiday?

2011-05-28T23:19:00.003+08:00

Carwash, guitar, vocals, 1 singing performance + 2 competition & of course, mugg for the last 2 weeks.

The day that i've been working hard for since last year is finally arriving next term. I cant wait. EEE idol 2011! Lets go :)

Little things.

2011-05-28T01:48:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, i just wish people would be more understanding & sensitive to others. I really do.

Sunday's gonna be a swimming + mugging day + guitar day.

Today... amazing race trial with mentoring people :) Hope the day goes well.

Red alert.

2011-05-24T22:32:00.002+08:00

Things to be done asap.

Carwash flyer design (this week).
Carwash banner design & printing (KIV).
Carwash flyer printing & distribution (next week).
Carwash equipment purchasing/Budget list (next week).

GEMS portfolio 1500 words (this friday).
Enquiry about singing competitions.
Camp preparation (cheers).

Im really stressed now. zzz.

Falling sick.

2011-05-22T20:14:00.003+08:00

Havent been feeling great lately... started feeling alil "not so right" since last week actually! Now im sneezing like nobody's business :/

Whatever the case, vocals today went quite well actually! Have been working on some erm... excersizes to make my headvoice stronger! Hope i'll improve quickly and be able to sing some songs that i always wanted to sing well!

Many things to do lately, practise guitar, practise singing, tutorial, FO camp trials, workouts.

Im such a born juggler! Cant seem to do nothing and stay still :/

Whatever! I shall practise my guitar and go rest earlier tonight! bye :P

A must-do...

2011-05-19T21:11:00.004+08:00

There are many things that i wanna do before i die in this life... i dont like the feeling of regretting the fact that i wasnt able to do certain things blah blah blah...

This is one of them! :)

I know it may be alil silly and so... but there are things that i'll never be able to do & i understand that, cuz they're just out of my capabilities.

But i just wanna feel like a dunker for a day, or perhaps an afternoon & make a nice video like the guy above.

(I know the guy looks short, but he's actually 170cm++. Go convert urself!)

Which is why... instead of going jogging(my original plan) just now... i went ahead and did some suicides!
Well, not that suicide! But this!

I swear my legs never felt so sore for a long time & im really happy. I just wanna get the lift under my legs back & jump as high as i used to be capable of.

Here's hoping that someday, this lil "dream" of mine comes true :)

Every single second counts.

2011-05-18T00:10:00.000+08:00

I've decided to make as much use of the free time i have... for those who already know... im jogging on tuesdays & swimming on wednesdays.

However... other than the time spent practising guitar & singing. I think i can spend more time working on my singing.

Yeah! Im gonna do that! I'll make sure i do :)

Blurry eyes.

2011-05-15T02:07:00.001+08:00

I realised how life seems to revolve so fast that we often forget the good times, the moments that everything felt so real...

Now i think i kinda neglected some of my friends alil. Probably cuz everyone is also busy... but now i remember that they are all good friends of mine :)

Leaving once again.

2011-05-14T20:55:00.002+08:00

Once again, i have left my twitter account. I just couldnt take it anymore. Being a person who has lots of opinions for many things, i decided that closing down my 2nd twitter account was the right thing to do...

I mean... twitter's fun but at the same time, a good 3rd eye view on other people and their lifes. Unfortunately, i just couldnt handle it & im not gonna allow it to turn me to someone else i am not for the second time.

So... GOOD RIDDANCE! :)

And now that i think of it... i just realised the impact that techonology had on our character's. So uncalled for, but who i can blame? :)

Stomach is upset!

2011-05-12T20:37:00.000+08:00

Skip most of my lessons today cuz i wasnt feeling so good... i knew there was something wrong with me in the morning cuz i was feeling weird!

Went out with esther for lunch, chatted awhile then went home! Upon reaching home... well, i spent alot of time in the toilet.

Anyhow, monday was alright! Went for mentoring camp trial! Sweated like mad! I swear this year those coming for camp better have long legs! Or not suffer like me! LOL.

Gym-ed as usual on tuesday, swam on wednesday too!

Meet up with a good friend of mine(also a very crazy friend of mine) for dinner on wednesday & she accompanied me for like 3hours! We just kept talking! Or rather, i listened & watched her play my iphone for another 45mins or so -.-

Went for my guitar class after that & homed! :) I might not be going school tmr! Feeling super weak now! See how i guess :/

Keep believing.

2011-05-08T07:36:00.005+08:00

Okay... i wasnt in such a good mood this few days due to certain stuff happening... but i feel better cuz i slept the entire morning to afternoon ytd. Feeling much more fresh than before :)

Anyway, i gotta admit that im still unsatisfied with my singing. Technically, my pitching, other than that, the rest is passable for now.

However... i just watched this!

Let me tell you... its a simple message but a strong one to wake me up from the sadness. I gotta admit i like the humour involved too! Made me smile quite a few times :)

For those who are wondering, I havent slept yet! Couldnt sleep. But im happy. Or at the least, im smiling now. I'll keep believing. I really will :P

P.s. I still hate mio. The connection really sucks.

P.p.s. Vocals last thursday wasnt good cuz i didnt have a good voice day. But nevertheless, im still fine :)

P.p.p.s. I just edited my links :) Removed those super inactive bloggers. kekeke.

P.p.p.p.s. (Getting irritating i know) Im going bball with some peeps later at 10am & i have not slept!

Iphone 4 white/Gym/Swim/Guitar. :D

2011-05-04T22:54:00.003+08:00

Well, first things first! I got myself a new phone! Iphone 4 white! :D Happiness, dont have to always borrow classmates phone already! Well, i didnt buy it myself of cuz! Thanks many for my parents :)

Have decided to keep to a dilligent lifestyle! I went for gym ytd & swimming today. I plan to continue them every week as i have so much free time on tuesdays & wednesdays. I really shouldnt waste them!

(Btw, my arms still hurt from swimming! Few years since i last swam! 16laps used to be so easy. Now 8laps and my arms hurt :/)

Guitar lesson today! Officially 1month since i started, still super weak at playing. Sucks. I really gotta put more time & effort into practise though...

Vocals tmr after school! Im such a busy man! Bye :P

P.s. Im getting alil irritated by people who dont have their own judgement on things & those who likes to use me. So angry -.-

Rant-ED.

2011-05-02T02:21:00.003+08:00

Here goes to everyone reading this post... I was pretty much in a bad mood yesterday but i ranted my feelings when i met up with hui yuan for dinner.

Thanks so much girl :)

I know that i pretty much cant blame anyone but myself for my singing. Well, i had a performance for an event on saturday...

I'll be fair to myself, my conditions that day wasnt good, i had a nose block & i was shouting alil during the preparations for the event & when the performance reached... I didnt do so well.

Sure! Everyone enjoyed it! Even i enjoyed the process of my performance! But when i listened to the video back home... There were so many pitching problems everywhere. I just couldnt help but sulk & emo as the night went on before i gave up sulking and went to bed at 3.30am.

I mean, im just not satisfied with my pitching. It's already 2 years now. I have improved. Yes. But im improving at a really slow rate & thats cuz i havent been putting enough effort into practising.

Needless to say, im bothered by other things too. The good news is, when i wake up later, i'll plan my time and re-organise myself. Yea!

I removed all my singing videos on facebook too! Here goes to a clean start again :)

Late post.

2011-04-29T22:58:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the late post! Been busy lately! I had vocals yesterday! Well, more of dance class honestly. Worked on my stage movements with peter老师 and others!

I think yesterday really helped loosen me up alil! Today, i practised the song, i feel more relaxed in front of people! :) Starting to enjoy the song already!

Tmr's the performance! Cant wait :)

Vocals.

2011-04-24T22:04:00.003+08:00

Vocals today went quite well! :) Learnt a new breathing technique today! The normal way which i take in air when i sing wasnt that correct, especially when i sing high. So, this technique would allow the larrings to not move!

Thus, my voice would feel more free and relaxed when preparing to hit higher notes! :)

I swear Rollin老师 is a genius about vocals, he seems to know so many things :)

T, W, T

2011-04-23T23:07:00.008+08:00

Tuesday

Wednesday

Thursday

Friday

If im being honest, i think that my 1st week of school was a sucky one. Why? Let me tell you why. I wasnt prepared for school! In a big way! I swear that cuz of itp, i didnt get enough rest during the holidays like i normally would & now... im lethargic to begin my 3rd year.

Im happy that i saw some of my nicest friends over this week though!

Yuzhen, Grace, Sheep & Moo! Mentoring people! :)

In any other case, im getting alil lazy to blog everytime... 1 more week left to performance! I swear u guys will like my video! Excited! :)

First day of school!

2011-04-18T23:02:00.004+08:00

Let me start off with yesterday! Vocals yesterday! Worked on the songs for my upcoming performance, dance steps especially. Really happy to have help from so many people! Though i admit im rather stiff :P

Well... First day of school!

Nothing new! :) Decided to wear this cuz i'll be moving around alot & thankfully i did.

I went out with my nuer to vivo to eat/slack/chat. Went back school for meeting with my department for block party, then went to find yu zhen after that. Swear im mad tired & my eyes and legs hurt. But im happy :)

Im so busy this week... im meeting a different person everyday. Plus, there's so many meetings to attend... so busy...

Whichever the case, i just decided that im gonna take photos of my attire to school everyday tis week :)

Lost again.

2011-04-16T01:34:00.003+08:00

As i spent the last few days of my itp stoning away... it seemed to hit me only now. That its already over. No more traveling to tuas. No more troublesome & nice boss. No more teabreaks, no more rides back, no more transport reimbursement, no more nice people...

Well, i know i've been quite abit of an asshole during this itp period... so if i offended anyone, which im pretty sure i did... im sorry.

As i see people recollecting what they've learned for their itp. I thought at first that i've gained nothing. It was a waste of time to me, becuz in my head everyday, i would think that i'll rather have spent the time working on my singing and stuff.

But no matter, i finally realised that i made a wrong choice to come into engineering. Honestly, i dont have much interest in it & unless i really cant find a job in the future, i seriously doubt i'll work in a engineering company...

Just being honest, no offenders k? :)

In case some of u all are wondering, the entire attachment money i've earned. I'll not spend a single cent of it. All of it will be going to the bank & be used to pay for my guitar course. Cant wait for my 2nd lesson :)

Lastly............. I think... that over the last year or 2 years, i've been pushing people aside. Reasons being that im to sensitive to what people say... and though i've been close with this bunch of people & together for 2/4 years in sch... I find myself drifting away. Caring more about singing, performing than my friends, the ones that have seen me grow up. Sorry guys! You should know who u are :p

Whatever the case, im sorry to be a asshole. I swear i will try to not take so much pride in myself & try my best to reverse the time! :D

Performance gonna be coming up soon. 2 weeks away. GDD's in 17hours. Meeting some of my close friend's on the first week of school isnt that bad afterall.

I hope to be honest & happy from now on :)

A day to remember.

2011-04-13T23:17:00.002+08:00

Thing's didnt go well today... but its defintely a day to remember! i left work at lunch to go home and rest... Wasnt feeling well & extremely lethargic, i still do now. Hope i'll recover by tmr....

First lesson today. What can i say? Fate? My instructor and i have met before. Singing at the same event last year. But i didnt talk to her that time though.

I'll work hard from today onwards! :) At least when i recover of course! :P

:D

2011-04-11T22:38:00.001+08:00

After so long... Finally, here's a photo from your's truly! :)

Enjoy! :D

Last week of itp tmr.

2011-04-10T23:05:00.001+08:00

Vocals today was good! Alil embarassing though... haha, worked on my "dance moves" for my song. I agree i dont have a good dancing body. Nevertheless, still gonna try my best to entertain everyone :)

Went to shop for my GDD attire after that. Bought something simple & a pair of shoes. I hope its nice :/

Last week of itp starts tmr. I still havent fill in the book -.- Omg. Cant wait! :)

It's the start of something new!

2011-04-06T22:12:00.002+08:00

Hello people! Have been in a good mood lately! Why? Cuz i joined a course ytd & officially went to register today! :)

Have been saving up for this very day since last year! I worked, saved up & kept most of my angbao money just for this! (Well, i did spend 50 bucks on dye-ing my hair)

As for what i sign up for... hehe, just give me some time! U'll get to see it soon! Im so excited for my first class next wednesday! AHHH! It's just the same feeling when i joined vocals 2 years back, except, this time, im joining a group class! (Prays for nice people :D)

Do visit my blog regularly kay! Will be busy preparing for a performance coming soon. But i'll keep updating! Bye :D

Late.

2011-04-04T22:25:00.004+08:00

Sorry for the late post, gotten alil lazy this few days...

Met up with wenling & jon for lunch on saturday! Chatted and walked around with them :) After that, i went to have dinner with sheep! :D

Vocals on sunday... well, didnt quite go so well, but i had another of those *snap* moments again.

Can u imagine that whatever ur teacher is trying to teach u but u dont get it. But one day, *snap* u get it! HAHA! I felt this yesterday! :)

Realised something that i probably should have realised earlier, but at least i got it now!

Been busy this few days again, im done researching and im waiting for email replies. If all goes well, i'll be able to make my decision this week. Come on! I can do this! :)

Shall end with a photo of yours truly, myself! Bye :P

Credits to moo for taking this last year! Really love my smile in this photo :)

Upcomming.

2011-04-01T16:41:00.004+08:00

Hey people! As you guys might have noticed, im blogging like once a week nowadays. Compared to the past where i blog like 3 times a week? haha. Been alil busy with attachment & basically when i reach home... i sing a few songs & play maple before i turn in & the cycle repeats.

Sad life right? Anyway, gonna be busy for the coming weeks! Performance for block party, meetup with friends, vocals. Aiya, just busy lah! :/

Honestly, i prefer school to itp, if im being honest... im seriously bored to death at attachment.

2 more weeks oh well....

Gonna be dancing for my next performance! Shall try to take a video! :) Dont expect much. LOL.

Bye people :)

Did i mention? I love this song!

My weekend!

2011-03-27T22:15:00.005+08:00

Okay. Yesterday, was a horrible day, i swear i was very unlucky. First, i woke up late, next, i went back to get my camera as i forgot, then, i got caught in a traffic jam & i was late for vocals for 30minutes, which caused me to reach on time for my performance.

Plusssss, i swear my hp is gonna die soon. Hang like 4/5 times a day. Hais....

Anyway, vocals yesterday with veron老师! She told me alot of things! Now... i feel like i have the make the next step... and this next one, is a very important one which can determine where i go with my singing... Hmm...

Rushed over to expo after my lesson! Performed 2 songs! I think i did the first one quite well, but i screwed the second one though :/ Went off pitch/beat at a few parts! Didnt have enuff time to prepare the song i guess? Oh well, im still sad! But i'll work on that song & make it better next time :)

However, im happy about one thing! I realised that yesterday, from the moment i went on the stage, i was myself. I wasnt pretending to be someone i wasnt. Yes! I was still alil nervous at first. But i really felt myself out there. I could feel the entire situation! :)

Went to meet Jaz & her bf after that! Dinnered at Justacia & walked around crapping & looking at clothes! Thanks for agreeing to meet me, sleepy head :)

Pretty much nothing happened today, bballed just now though, had fun & played quite well! I still can make nice passes ^^

Gonna prepare for work tmr! Bye! :)

Thanks weiqian for giving me the chance to sing & perform :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOTHER! :D

2011-03-23T00:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM! TAKE CARE & JIAYOU IN CAMP! CHAT WHEN YOU'RE BACK! :D:D:D

Vocals/Meetup with mum!

2011-03-20T22:37:00.012+08:00

Here i am! Blogging now before attachment resumes tmr! :)

Before i begin, just to say that i'll be performing at expo at 5pm, outside hall 5 this coming saturday! Will be for an earth hour event & i'll be singing 2 songs! 1 english & 1 chinese! For those passing by, do come and listen to me :P

Anyway, vocals today wasnt too bad, worked on 2 songs with zhiwen老师 and on my pitching too! Took note of some things and i gotta work on them!

Honestly, im alil nervous and worried i wont do a good job this saturday, been awhile since i last performed & 1 of the songs, i only learnt recently. Gonna make the best of my 5 days remaining! :)

Met up with my mum today! Spent time eating and chatting with each other! Really great to talk to people like her! Though she really very... Bhb :P

Okay! bye :)

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2011-03-19T01:20:00.002+08:00

My supposingly dyed red hair is fading off alittle. Argh. Damn sad! Anyway, itp week 2 is over :) Gladdd! I realised that since my weekdays are spent working... my weekends are gonna be very packed with vocals, meetups and stuff...

Most likely gonna be performing at expo next saturday! Now i really have something to look forward to! Been awhile since i last performed so im quite nervous/excited! Another performance coming up in april! Gotta rehearse already! Duet-ing tis time though :P

There's also kbox later with ming kang! Meetup with huiyuan tmr! kbox with jiening & people next week! Meetup with jaz next week too!

Ohh my godddd. I swear i have quite an amount of unhappy stuff in me lately... well, actually they probably are the same topic...

In the meantime... Shall go rant at my private blog! Bye!

Update

2011-03-13T21:28:00.016+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates, gotten alil lazy and busy lately. Anyway, last week, i started my itp. First 2 days were boring, thrown into a corner to read books/sleep. Then i went home after lunch on wednesday, was feeling under the weather! Thursday was better, asked for admin work, so we kept ourselves occupied. Sent for a course on friday to get a permit card! And i received my driving licence :)

Also, i dyed my hair RED on friday! :) Reddish lah, haha.

Mentoring mini-edu fair ytd! Enjoyed myself, though... hmm... well some personal opinions, but yeah. It was fun :) Especially the maze department. I enjoy scaring kids. LOL, grabbing their legs, banging tables, waving in a corner, screaming at them in the dark. Though i was so scared when i went in for a trial run -.-

Vocals today was good! Wasnt in a good condition today, but nevertheless, tried a new song. Learned some new stuff. Need to work on it :)

Here are photos from the past week.

P.s. You cant see my red hair, didnt take proper photos after i dyed. Well, still waiting photos from mentoring mini edu :)

P.p.s. I dont really like wearing my company shirt and boots & i bought a new set of jeans last week.

P.p.p.s. I'm sorry for this disorganised post.

Unconditional love.

2011-03-05T20:00:00.001+08:00

Before i go on to blogging about something i encountered lately, shall just recap what happened today.

Met up with eileen for a gymming session at SP, tiring for my legs, but i guess it was rather fruitful :) Gotta excersize more!

Vocals today was a learning experience, had my lesson with a new teacher, Veron. She's really nice & funny but i think she teaches real well! She showed me alot of examples on how to represent the song. How to control the speed of lines & phrasing. Plusss, she sings so well even when she's sick! Looks like i got some homework to do :)

Anyway, i just thought that i should blog about this guy, Chris medina. For those of you that dont know him, you can watch this video below!

But i'll just give a short description of him, he proposed to his girlfriend a few years back & they agreed that they'll get married in 2009. However, unfortunately, his fiancee met with an accident in 2009 & suffered a brain injury. While she was in a coma, the doctors told him that she wasnt gonna make it, but he still believed in her. Until now... they're still not married.

However, despite of what she has become, he still continued to love her & take care of her, hoping to marry her someday. What really touched me was when he said that if he had left her, what kind of person would he be?

I mean, honestly, if im in his shoes, i dont know myself whether i can be like him. It's easy to say it, but not easy to do it. Im quite upset that he didnt make it to the top 24 of american idol, he was so close... but one day after his elimination, he realised a single of this song "What are words"

It's a song about his life and... i seriously think you all should listen to it. It just describes his story & im just really touched. Really love this song as its damn meaningful... all the best dude!

For those who might want the song, feel free to get it from me. I've already downloaded it. Okay, im just not in the right mind now... he's just amazing...

4 years of friendship.

2011-03-05T00:02:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEN LING JIE :D

Exam's over! ITP's next :)

2011-03-03T21:46:00.003+08:00

Finally... the exams are over! Well, i thought i did okay for my papers, though i didnt put a 100% effort into studying them.

Anyhow, the bad thing is, my Itp/attachment starts coming monday & its located between joo koon & tuas. Though, its actually just outside tuas. Checked my routes, a 1hr bus journey... still need change bus. Oh well, at least i can wear anything i want for my attachment, as long as its presentable :)

Which also means, im not gonna have alot of time to myself this "holiday". Will try to work on my singing, meetups with friends & juggle with meetings for mentoring stuff too. Sighs.

The good thing is im gonna spend my next few days, bballing, singing, mapling & movie-ing.

Till i blog again! My PQ party is waiting for me :D